I wish it was our family.....

I wish it was our family whose child was paper-ready, who has a court date to look forward to, who has passed court and now knows thier child is thiers forever..... My heart is breaking and there is nothing I or anyone else can do about it. When is it going to be our turn? When will we be the ones who can send out that e-mail to everyone shouting that we passed court and Desta is now our daughter forever? I can't even look at her pictures any more, or open the door to her room, without the tears starting to flow. It's just not fair, I see mothers with thier little girls and I ask myself why not me? No one outside of the adoption world understands my pain, you can see it in thier eyes when explaining the situation we have found ourselves in. It just stinks!!!