Sad news

We received some very sad news along with several other families. We have been waiting on a court date for the past 5 months or so we thought..... The truth is that they refrered us a child whose paperwork was not completed by the orphange she was in for the first month of her life, what this means is she is not paper-ready and we now have to wait on the orphange to gather the necessary paperwork to submit to MOWA before we can proceed with her adoption. So now baby girl is 7 months old and they are just now finding this out? I don't think that is the case. Who knows how long this process will take....weeks, months...years? Yes, I said YEARS. There was a situation awhile back where this same exact thing happened, you think t
hat this would change things so that it didn't happen again, NOT! These familes have waited up to 2 years to bring thier children home, totally unacceptable in my opinion.
This statement might upset some people, but it is the truth and I can't help but feel cheated out of this time with my daughter. We requested an infant for many reasons, one important reason is so that we could share those firsts that come in the first couple years of life with her. Her first word, crawling, her first steps, cutting her first tooth, etc. Some of these firsts we will now miss because of this delay, and it is breaking my heart to miss out on these important milestones with my daughter. And even though she is being well taken care of, she still needs the love and one on one attention of her mommy, daddy, and the rest of the family. I am so sad she is missing out on this. She is our daughter and we will wait for her to come home, but it is heart wrenching to say the least to hear of others sail through court dates and travel to bring thier children home. I will find peace with the situation, but it will take some time to work through all the emotions I am feeling right now. I am trying so hard to keep it together, but find myself crying at the drop of the hat. My older kids think I have lost it because they still can't grasp the depth of love I have for this little girl that I have never met. No one really understands unless they have been through the adoption process.
We are also still waiting on our referral for a toddler girl....not sure that will ever happen either. We have never gotten any information on it, even though I have sent several e-mails.
Please pray that our family gets through this delay and our baby girl gets to come home soon.