Tuesday....

So here we are, Tuesday already and still no news of additional court dates for all of us waiting families. We did get an e-mail about our agency director going to Ethiopia this week to find out what might be going on. I hope that he is able to get some answers for us all. I am not sure, but something tells me that maybe something might be wrong. What I don't know, I just have a funny feeling.

On a good note, one family did pass court today from our agency. And they received thier referral the same day as we got ours. I am so happy for them, thier baby is only about 5 months old or so.

I just hope things start moving along for all of us. What could possibly be the hold up anyway? How hard is it anyway to assign a court date? I just don't understand. Will post more info as we get it.

Tomorrow starts a new week

Well tomorrow starts another week for those of us waiting to hear of a court date. I really hope that we receive a court date soon, along with all the other families that have waited as long or longer for thiers. This week has really taken a toll on me emotionally as well as physically. I have had some trouble sleeping, and feel tired all the time. I will be praying tonight.

Holy cow will this wait ever end?

Another week of absolutely NOTHING!!!!!! I am sick to death of the whole situation. WHY WHY WHY?????

I have totally messed up my blog!

I was messing around and now my blog looks like awful. I will have to get busy and try to fix it tonight.

I am losing it!!

Wow this week has been the hardest yet. I can't focus on anything and I am slowly losing the battle to keep it together and be happy for all the families that have already gotten thier court dates. I mean how do I keep myself from being so jealous that here I am waiting since May( almost 5 months) for a stupid court date and someone in our group gets one that has only been waiting for a MONTH!!!! I really am happy for them, it's just so hard to be upbeat right now. Thier children deserve to be home as much as ours,but it just doesn't seem fair. I just want to scream I tell you. I am glad in a way that my husband isn't here to see me like this, although I know he feels so bad that he can't be here for me for the next year and I miss him so much. I don't feel any better but I am done for now.

I think I might go crazy!!!

If we don't get a court date soon. I can't sleep, I can't eat, I am losing my hair, I am a woman obsessed, my heart is breaking....and I am just so tired of stalking this computer for e-mails it's pitiful.

The courts have opened and they have started hearing cases again. Good news. From the big board I learned that some agencies were receiving court dates for families that haven't been waiting as long as we have for ours. I found myself wondering the "whys & what ifs" of it all. Why didn't our agency have any dates? Why were families with referrals after ours getting court dates? What if our paperwork is lost and no one knows this? What if she gets sick before we can bring her home? What if this adoption never happens? I am having such a hard time right now dealing with all the uncertainty and lack of information of what is going on. Then last week we found out that our agency received 5 court dates, I was hoping and praying that ours would be one of them. When I received an e-mail with the subject ~court dates~ my heart was soaring because I thought my prayers had been answered! But as soon as I opened it my heart sank 10 times faster. This is part of the e-mail.

We just received word that some of the court dates we have been given are for cases more recently filed. This is a disappointment to everyone as we were hoping court dates would be assigned in order, not randomly, which appears to be the case.

We understand this will be a great disappointment to all of you who have been patiently waiting for a court date for months. Hopefully the courts will work through the backlog quickly.

I couldn't stop the tear from flowing. I was devastated to say the least. I know that my wait has not been as long as a couple of the other families, so I can only imagine what they must be feeling right now. Not only was this bad news, but what hurts more is that I don't have the luxury of just picking up the phone to talk to Jerry about it. He has always been my rock throughout the whole rollacoaster process that is adoption. He is the one that can make everything make sense and calm my fears. He is the one that is able to comfort me like no one else.

One of the families that received thier referral the same day we did announced thier court date. I am happy for them even though my heart is breaking for our family.
This adoption is so much different from our adoption of Levi. We were given so much more information during his adoption, and in this one I feel sometimes so in the dark. We have so little information. Everyone asks questions that I don't have the answers for.
Please pray for our family.

Courts have reopened

Just got word yesterday that the courts did indeed open yesterday..... YEAH!!! We are so excited that we may be getting some good news this week. We still are unsure if our case was filed before the closure or just yesterday. That is something that our program director is looking into for us. There are several families that got thier referrals the same day we did. So we are all waiting anxiously for news that we received our court dates. I hope we all get good news this week and can finally breathe a sigh of relief that we have a court date. Lets get these babies home!!!!