I wish it was our family.....

I wish it was our family whose child was paper-ready, who has a court date to look forward to, who has passed court and now knows thier child is thiers forever..... My heart is breaking and there is nothing I or anyone else can do about it. When is it going to be our turn? When will we be the ones who can send out that e-mail to everyone shouting that we passed court and Desta is now our daughter forever? I can't even look at her pictures any more, or open the door to her room, without the tears starting to flow. It's just not fair, I see mothers with thier little girls and I ask myself why not me? No one outside of the adoption world understands my pain, you can see it in thier eyes when explaining the situation we have found ourselves in. It just stinks!!!

Sad news

We received some very sad news along with several other families. We have been waiting on a court date for the past 5 months or so we thought..... The truth is that they refrered us a child whose paperwork was not completed by the orphange she was in for the first month of her life, what this means is she is not paper-ready and we now have to wait on the orphange to gather the necessary paperwork to submit to MOWA before we can proceed with her adoption. So now baby girl is 7 months old and they are just now finding this out? I don't think that is the case. Who knows how long this process will take....weeks, months...years? Yes, I said YEARS. There was a situation awhile back where this same exact thing happened, you think t
hat this would change things so that it didn't happen again, NOT! These familes have waited up to 2 years to bring thier children home, totally unacceptable in my opinion.
This statement might upset some people, but it is the truth and I can't help but feel cheated out of this time with my daughter. We requested an infant for many reasons, one important reason is so that we could share those firsts that come in the first couple years of life with her. Her first word, crawling, her first steps, cutting her first tooth, etc. Some of these firsts we will now miss because of this delay, and it is breaking my heart to miss out on these important milestones with my daughter. And even though she is being well taken care of, she still needs the love and one on one attention of her mommy, daddy, and the rest of the family. I am so sad she is missing out on this. She is our daughter and we will wait for her to come home, but it is heart wrenching to say the least to hear of others sail through court dates and travel to bring thier children home. I will find peace with the situation, but it will take some time to work through all the emotions I am feeling right now. I am trying so hard to keep it together, but find myself crying at the drop of the hat. My older kids think I have lost it because they still can't grasp the depth of love I have for this little girl that I have never met. No one really understands unless they have been through the adoption process.
We are also still waiting on our referral for a toddler girl....not sure that will ever happen either. We have never gotten any information on it, even though I have sent several e-mails.
Please pray that our family gets through this delay and our baby girl gets to come home soon.

Baby girl is 7 months old today

Well our baby girl is 7 months old today and we are still waiting on a court date....can you believe that? I can't!!! I am so beyond frustrated, angry, and tired of all this waiting. When we received our referral back in May we just couldn't believe our luck... we were way ahead of schedule at that point, but here we are 5 months later and are now behind. I don't know what we are going to do if our paperwork expires before we can bring her home, with Jerry deployed how are we gonna get new paperwork done and new fingerprints? These are my wories now. I pray everyday that we might hear something that gives me hope, but there has been none of that yet. I truely hope this wait ends soon for all of us waiting on court dates.

Another week

Here's to getting some good news this week about our adoption of Desta. I am praying that all of us waiting get good news this week. This weekend was a little easier since I had some things planned and Levi had a blast trick or treating, but we are still missing our hubby and daddy. I am trying to stay positive this week, at least that is my goal.

Tuesday....

So here we are, Tuesday already and still no news of additional court dates for all of us waiting families. We did get an e-mail about our agency director going to Ethiopia this week to find out what might be going on. I hope that he is able to get some answers for us all. I am not sure, but something tells me that maybe something might be wrong. What I don't know, I just have a funny feeling.

On a good note, one family did pass court today from our agency. And they received thier referral the same day as we got ours. I am so happy for them, thier baby is only about 5 months old or so.

I just hope things start moving along for all of us. What could possibly be the hold up anyway? How hard is it anyway to assign a court date? I just don't understand. Will post more info as we get it.

Tomorrow starts a new week

Well tomorrow starts another week for those of us waiting to hear of a court date. I really hope that we receive a court date soon, along with all the other families that have waited as long or longer for thiers. This week has really taken a toll on me emotionally as well as physically. I have had some trouble sleeping, and feel tired all the time. I will be praying tonight.

Holy cow will this wait ever end?

Another week of absolutely NOTHING!!!!!! I am sick to death of the whole situation. WHY WHY WHY?????